I Am Sorry

I am sorry

I apologize

I am not the person you want me to be

I am different

Someone you don’t understand.

My life experiences

Have been very different from yours

And very painful too

I had to swim across a sea of pain

To get here.

I am sorry

I cannot change my past

Or unwrite my life before

Or become what you think

 I should be.

I would love to be

The person I was before things went wrong

When my dreams were full of joy

When I knew how to trust

And enjoyed every moment.

I’ve struggled a lot to come this far

Picked up the pieces

Got through many dark nights

Shed tears by the bucket

Because it hurt so bad.

I am sorry

I cannot say this is a good world

I cannot pretend that nothing happened

And I cannot say untruths

Just to please you.

I have learnt to keep going

I have learnt I have to be strong

Cos there are times

When you have no one else to depend on

But God.

I am sorry

I haven’t been able to live the life I wanted

And I have a zest for what I missed

Which few can understand

I cannot give that up!

I am sorry

I am not just any average person

Cos I believe that there are no average persons

Everyone is special and unique

And so am I.