Musings at year end

I stare at

The canvas of my life

Wondering what I should do

With the lines, the dots and the in-betweens

Trying to make sense of the vague things

That filled my life for years. 

The Canvas of Life

As I fumble and fret about things

That didn’t go well for me

I begin to see

Some signs of lessons

I still need to learn.

‘No wonder,’ I tell myself

‘It took so long for me to get here!’

It slowly dawns on me

That if I had the things I asked for

I would not have enjoyed them

With the wrong attitudes within me.

God in His infinite wisdom

Placed obstacles and detours

In my path

Till I was ready to receive

What He had for me...

Graciously, joyfully

And with the right spirit! 

I now see my life

As a mosaic

There are different colored pieces

Of different sizes and shapes

They all come together

And fall in somehow...

Making it beautiful.

There are a few voids

Still left to fill

I’ve decided not to worry about them

God who helped me overcome

The vague things that didn’t make sense

Will surely have it all planned for me

It will all work out for good!

Armed with a new confidence

I set off again

Smiling within myself

Looking forward to good things

Thinking, doing and believing

The best of everything...

Knowing this time

The voids will be filled

I will be whole and happy

For the rest of my life!