A black hole

Flitting from moment to moment, job to job….

I filled the time with things to do

Roles to live out

Needs to meet

Help to be given

Where it was seen

Years have gone by

I made choices

Ignored voices

Kept moving when things had stalled

Staying had run out of reasons

One look back at time gone by

‘It's gone!’ my spirit cries

Never to return

I make a vain effort to retrieve

Pull strands of invisible time

Lost, I’ve lost it all whatever was mine

Caving in to the mounting despair

I fret about years

Give way to tears

A sinking feeling covers my being

Will I get out of this abyss?

Time gone by is no more the worry

Time left in hand is paramount

My whole focus of existence now shifts

How will I pull myself out of this rut?

Living to please others has had a casualty

The price I had to pay was ‘me’

Searching inside for some pointers

I seek the voice I did not heed

I call out and wait for a response

Hello! Is anyone there?

No sound… just silence

I look at the trash heap, my life

If only I listened when the voice had called

I would have had a better story to tell

A guide it would’ve been to take me home

Home where there’s fulfillment and peace

A life well lived, a legacy to leave behind

Cough! Cough! Sputter! Spatter!

Something just came back to life

I rush at break neck speed to its side

Ah! I feared you wouldn’t make it…

The voice smiles

Now its time to leave this place it says

But how? I’m in a rut I plead

I have no strength no ideas to get out of here

Just trust your heart

It has all the answers it said.

We combine our strengths

My desperation and its confidence

At countdown we pull with all our might

This fight is for my life, myself and me

Suddenly I see the light I’m free!

Out of the black hole, I’m on a journey discovering me!